Breathe @ Attack of the Redneck Mommy

Today is my son’s seventh birthday.

There will be no birthday cake. No party, no silly hats, no presents stuffed in gift bags or wrapped in dollar store paper.

There is no boy to blow out the candles and spit all over the cake.

Breathe.

Instead, there is a mother who quietly mourns and wonders if she will ever find the thread to mend her broken heart.

A mother who mourns long after every one else has moved on.

A mom who has to remember to breathe through the hurt and push past the pain to appreciate what still remains.

Breathe.

It is a lonely day today.

Happy Birthday Bug. We miss you. More every damn day it seems.

Breathe.

May my kiss be carried to you by a thousand angel wings, Bug.

This post is posted in Tear Jerker on Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 10:51 am. Keep up with this conversation via RSS or Both comments and trackbacks are currently closed.

112 Comments

craziequeen

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 13:44

Happy Birthday, dear Bug.

Although we weren’t honoured to know you, and you sound like a lovely little man, your mum has told us all about you and we love you because she loves you.

Huge hugs, T.

cq
Leah

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:00

I usually lurk but wanted to come out for a moment and say my prayers and thoughts are with you. Happy Birthday Bug!!!
FishyGirl

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:22

Happy Birthday, Bug, enjoy your angel party.

And peace and love and many many hugs to you, T. Thank you for sharing him with us.
Ree

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:28

Hugs RNM.

Happy Birthday Bug. Hugs from all of us.
Worker Mommy

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:31

Happy Birthday, dear Bug!

I know you’re sending kisses right back to your amazing mommy and family!
Wendy

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:33

Happy Birthday, sweet boy.
Josie

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:38

Happy Birthday Bug.

Thinking of you and your family today.
Jennifer

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:41

Happy birthday, Bug.
mothergoosemouse

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:46

T, thinking of you and your Bug today.

I wish I had more than that to give you.
Sandra

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:47

Happy birthday bug! I just shared bug’s story with my guy who is almost the same age. We’ve all got to know him so well through your words.

Sending you all my love today. All of it.
Mrs. Chicken

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:55

Of course you never get over it. Of course you don’t. Thinking of you this day.
witchypoo

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 14:56

I don’t know how you ever get through this. I know it’s got to be harder when you feel everyone else has moved on. Just know that there is one more Canadian who was a total snotbag reading this. I feel you.
Serendipity, baby!

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:02

Add me to the list of people who cried like a blithering idiot reading your tribute. So sorry for you loss and I’m glad Bug had such great parents even if his time here was too short.
NotAMeanGirl

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:05

Remember the joy hon. Celebrate his life and the love you have for him. Happy Birthday Bug.
mel from freak parade

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:07

I’m so sorry. I’m sorry because I know your broken heart will never be mended. I do pray that each and every day the pain eases just a little and in its place, happy memories bring peace and comfort. Thank you for sharing your beautiful boy with us. Happy Birthday, Bug.
Marie

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:13

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUG !! Many hugs for your family. God Bless !!
HeatherN3Boys

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:17

It’s a sad day indeed, for 2 of my 5 favorite bloggers. Tertia (www.tertia.org) lost a son 4 years ago, today, too. I wish you both serenity and happy memories.
whoorl

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:19

Happy Birthday, Bug. Thinking of you!
Hetha

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 15:46

Happy Birthday Bug. Sending you and your family many hugs and kisses.
Jen

Friday, 4 January, 2008 at 16:10

Happy Birthday to your Bug and my thoughts are completely with you.

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